it was about a year ago that i began tirelessly searching through our local real estate website for a new house.
i didn’t know if or when we would move. but with january’s cold dark settling into our townhome, i wanted sunshine – a bigger play-living space inside – and a yard. a yard a yard a yard.
throughout the months of searching, i told – threatened 🙂 – tyler that i was willing to live in a tent if it was in the middle of a fenced in green space.
two boys bouncing everywhere and the need for sunshine on my skin made me want a yard so. badly.
last year… shoot, the last year and a half, has been a laborious one for tyler and me. and i know that’s a weird word – laborious – but i just think it might be the best word i know to describe the past bit of our lives.
we have trudged. we have worked. we have lost sleep. we have welcomed life. we have fixed fixed fixed fixed our eyes on Jesus and we are waiting in hope. for so much.
if you read back through the last year of posts, you will see a glimpse into a bit of what i am talking about. and if you call me… or come over, especially with a latte for me in your hand :), i will share even more. if you’d like.
and in that year, the Lord gave us a house. we hit the jackpot – again. (we hit it with our first house too, the townhome…) the minute i saw the listing i knew it was OUR house. you better believe it, I was blowing up our realtor’s phone, tyler’s phone, figuring out how in the world we could be first in line, our offer accepted.
the story surrounding the buying and selling of our homes is totally the Lord. it’s amazing.
and even though the time the Lord gave us our home was also splattered with sadness and more hard stuff, He made this gift – our home – such a respite for us. even with the cardboard boxes and piles of stuff everywhere.
so it’s been a year. and it’s january again. with sun pouring in through the windows at every side of our new home. a backyard fenced in that really is better than i could have imagined. even though we are still working on driving out the mushrooms and some ugly bushes. but who cares!? i’m happy. there’s sunshine and warmth and it’s january and i love our new home.
goodness, Lord, if there’s anything I have learned through this time it’s this – I do not deserve it. you. life, good anything, anything. if there’s something i do deserve it’s dirt and death and everything disgusting.
so thank you so so so so so so much for not giving me what i deserve. and then on top of that giving me what i do. not. deserve. Life is not fair, and praise the Lord.
and where we suffer bits of what we do deserve, only temporary. only fleeting. only fading fast into the glorious light of eternity and the glorious life of Christ.
all, grace. all grace. ALL GRACE.